
Another uneventful day followed by another uneventful day. Followed by more rain and just more rain. Rain really kills my mood.
With only 7 days left to the start of the exam, stress and anxiety is increasingly growing. I'm not sure how "prepared" I am, just that I'm not sure about 2101, 2216 and Jap. However, this trinity are all on the first week of the exams. After this it will be much better, perhaps I will even have time to head down to expo for the latest computer show. Feel like getting a iRiver E10. (Note: I have no mp3 player.) I don't even use my PPC Phone to listen to music even though I have music files inside, which I use for alarms in the morning. Well, I'll see how things go. I'm still caught up with a lack of money. (Who doesn't anyway?)
Just now I was talking with my fren about the exams and I just realized that how caught up in this paper chase I was. I slowly realize the reasons why some of my frens in their 3rd year didn't continue to take their honors year despite being able to do so. Unless you are damn smart (which I am not..unfortunately), you need to sustain your CAP above a certain standard every sem, which means giving up a part of your life to study and slog away at this self-designated target. Then I ask myself, what do I want to do with honors? I have no answer for now. Self-fufilment? Or perhaps to make up for the lost past.
I am not feeling all right.
digital love;
7:14 PM